We should have had a lifetime...

" My child, you left behind a broken heart and happy memories too, but I never wanted memories, I wanted you." Unknown Author

I've been told that life goes on and that I have so much to be thankful for, but honestly the ones who have told me this have never suffered the loss of a child. And to loose that child to suicide is an indescribable agony. Only one who has suffered the same will ever have the comprehension to understand that grief. Knowing that no matter how much you loved your child, that your love wasn't enough to overshadow their own pain or self preservation.



Don't get me wrong, I am thankful for what I do have. I have a wonderful husband,  six beautiful daughters, and six amazing grandchildren...  And I am so thankful that I was given the chance to raise such an incredible son, but my life will always be shadowed with loss. With every beat of my heart, I am reminded that JT is no longer with us. How can I be thankful when his chair is forever empty, when I can no longer hear the sound of his laughter,  or see that beautiful smile-- When the memories of him are all I have and my last will always be a nightmare.

We should have had a lifetime of memories ahead of us.

 
Learn more about JT on his Facebook Memorial Page

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention donations can be made on the JT Waters Memorial Fund Page 

 Please visit the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. They provide resources for education, assistance for those considering suicide as well as resources for survivors.

If you are in crisis, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741.